Friday, October 12, 2012

New Poem!

Hello again loves,
Forgive me for the bit of darkness in this poem. It pales in comparison to the level of pain I'm currently enduring, but writing definitely helped. I wrote it in a mere matter of minutes; it just came pouring out of me! I'm really fond of it. Many think that pain produces great art. Hopefully you'll enjoy the poetry my pain produced.

~Christina



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Staring at a page of familiar faces
Disgusted at the smiles I see staring back at me
More disgusted that mine is among them
It's all a fallacy
These emotions do not warrant a smile
Not one of truth anyhow
I'm prayerful that mine will return
And lessen this mean, meanwhile.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

An Encouraging Word :o)

I stumbled upon this note on Facebook today from a friend of my cousin. I thought I'd share it with you :o)

"I think that one of the things we forget to tell each other, especially our family and friends is that they can do it.

So, I'm writing this note to remind every single person who is reading this, whether you were tagged in this note or not that you can do it.

Whatever seems imposssible, you can do it.

Whatever has always kicked your butt in the past, you can do it.

That class you can't seem to pass, you can do it.

That one skill you have been trying to master for the past several years, you can do it.

The dreams that you have started to let go of because you think you will never really be able to achieve them, you can do it.

The fears that you have never seemed to be able to overcome, you can.

The habits that you have never been able to break, you can break them.

The changes you just can't seem to make, you can make them.

You can do anything and everything.

But, there's one catch.

You can't do it alone.

Only God can help you.

So, let Him help you do that which everyone has said you will never be able to do.

Let Him take you to places you never knew existed.

Let Him unleash the potential that you were born with, that He gave you, that you can feel inside you but just don't know how to harness it.

Because God knows you can do it.

In fact, He created you to do it.

But, do it with Him.

It's the only way."

I hope this note gives you the courage to confidently go forth with God into your future endeavors. 

♥ Christina

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

The Sound of 3am

The title of this post is much more intriguing than its content. I'm an insomniac so being awake at 3am is an unfortunate but normal occurrence. At 3am this morning I heard an intense knocking on a neighbor's door. Upon answering their door, they were greeted with the news that their car was being repossessed. They had two choices: hand over the keys or have their car towed. It isn't the most wonderful time of year for all. Times are tough for a lot of people so before you complain about sitting in traffic, be thankful you have a car to sit in! Instead of complaining, count your blessings. There's always something to be thankful for.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

New Insomnia Low

It's 11:43am. I have not slept yet. I've shied away from taking sleep aids for fear of becoming addicted. It may be time to give in...to a non-addictive option of course. This is a ridiculous cycle. Wow...this is what my life has become thanks to stress. Actually, stress is a grave understatement. I suppose I should attempt to force myself to sleep now. *shakes fist at invisible insomnia supplier* I hope whoever's reading this has a way better start to their day than moi!

until next time...

Friday, May 6, 2011

Well, I thought wrong!

The Monday after Easter, I went out to celebrate my friend's birthday. Her closest girlfriends to took pics by a nearby lake, went to dinner, and joined many other friends for a night of bowling. That was my first time bowling in an actual bowling alley-crazy I know. I'm not too shabby. It was a very fun night. I was glad I wore a cute outfit that day and couldn't wait to see how the pics turned out.

Turns out, I never needed to see the pics. Only one pic has been posted but if that's any indication of what's to come, I don't need to see the rest. I look so fat! I was such a black sheep in the pic. I'm use to being the token black person in my group of friends but this time I was the token fat black girl in a group of beautiful white girls. I almost want to apologize to my friend for ruining her bday pic!

Here I am busting my butt doing Zumba, strength training, eating well, and staying hydrated and for what?!? I know results don't happen overnight but I'm tired of this. I want to feel AND look cute, not feel cute only to realize I looked a fat, hot mess. Well, I had a good cry about it. Nothing left to do but keep chugging along. Hopefully there will be a noticeable difference sooner rather than later.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Inspiration courtesy of Criminal Minds

When you think of inspiration, I highly doubt the crime drama Criminal Minds comes to mind. Surprisingly enough, it was just the inspiration and push I needed to better myself. Every episode features a quote relevat to it's plot. The quote from S6E16 really struck me: 

Tomorrow, you promise yourself, will be different, yet, tomorrow is too often a repetition of today. ~James T. Mccay

Hearing Reed say this quote was a necessary slap in my face! Tomorrow isn't promised to us. Mccay's quote made me realize that I have spent too much time promising myself that my tomorrow will be different, only to stay in a perpetual state of yesterday. I don't know about you but I don't want to continue wasting whatever time I have being unhappy. I don't want to reflect upon my life and see nothing but a slew of unfulfilled promises. 

So let's talk specifics; what has this quote inspired me to be diligent about?
-Losing weight
-Believing that I'm beautiful RIGHT NOW not when I lose the weight etc.
-Contacting those that can help me remove the blockade that's plagued my life for years and made my future seem bleak
-Being a better example of Christ's love to everyone I come in contact with
-The little things like spring cleaning

The important thing for me is to avoid getting overwhelmed. Multitasking is great until you get to the point where some things are thriving at the expense of others. I've begun working on all of these things and I'm more hopeful and excited about my future than I have been in years. Thank you Criminal Minds!




Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Poetic Bite #1

Often times I have poetic thoughts... baby poems if you will. I used to think they weren't worth sharing because I didn't turn them into full fledged poems. I don't know where I got that idea. So, here you go...

They say misery loves company
Well don't expect my RSVP
I wash my hands of that negativity
Shake it off
Join me on the bright side for tea



Boom!